Growth
T - 9 days until I leave for Hawaii! I am so excited and I cannot believe its actually happening. My whole life I always said I would go somewhere far away for college and it looks like I was right. It gives me a sense of peace and I feel my younger self would be happy knowing I am going to Hawaii. It feels as if I am keeping that child in me alive. I think we all created future beliefs and expectations for ourselves while we were children and I can confidently say my younger self would not be disappointed.
Countdown
As the countdown becomes shorter and shorter I am trying to prepare myself but also do not want to have too many expectations. Because I have never been to Hawaii let alone attended YWAM I have tried to open my mind to the many possibilities and opportunities that may come. When we have expectations we can easily be let down. We can experience something and completely miss the beauty in it because of our expectations. My mom asked me while we were driving somewhere “What are you most excited for when you go to Hawaii?”. I thought to myself and realized I was super excited for Hawaii but not any one thing in particular. I believe this is a good thing. Even though I am obviously excited to be surrounded by like-minded people who will help me improve daily. And also excited to surf, snorkel, hike, etc. I am really just happy currently in the present and that is why I’m not looking forward to any one thing particularly. I am trying to stay in a head space of gratitude and mindfulness while in Minnesota, so that wherever God takes me I can be present and joyful.
While in church I had an idea come to me. I thought I should make a list, a list of all the things I wanted to see and places I wanted to be. Something along the lines of…
Bucket List
- Go to a volcano
- See a sea turtle
- See a shark
- See a waterfall
- Go Cliff jumping
- Go Surfing
- Go Snorkeling
- Ride a sail boat
- Go deep sea Fishing
- Go to a Laua
I wanted to create and post this list before I leave for Hawaii. Each time I check one off I will either share a picture or story about the experience. This is a rough draft, hopefully before I leave I can create an "official" bucket list. If any of you guys want to help me, just let me know. if any of you have been to Hawaii or just have some suggestions, leave a comment so I can add it to the list!
Conclusion
My goal for these journals is to be an overflow of my soul. Some days it is easy for me to convey the feelings of my inner self. Other days I cannot find a single word to express what I am feeling, but I just go day by day and find new ways of thinking. Lenardo DiCaprio said "every obstacle in our life requires a new person of ourselves." and I agree. That is why sometimes I choose an obstacle, like maybe, creating a website. I have already seen myself grow in many different aspects since I created this website. I hope to continue to grow with this website and all facets of my life. I hope to use the experiences that I chose and those that I do not can be great lessons and the wisdom can be abundant.
Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed!
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My guy super excited for you to walk this path of life. I know it’ll pay off in the end. Try to do a labyrinth walk at some point you’ll love it. Just make sure you have something in you had and focus hard on that.